I Hate Philosophies...

first day of internship

2006-03-28T10:21:00.000+08:00

Fuck it... i wrote and entry but how fucking WINDOWS BASED COMPUTER crashed.

Damn... anyway, my first day at 93.8 Live was pretty cool. I like my colleagues, their mostly friendly and informal... we've a really funny admin lady too. She talks to herself. haha...

Did some call screening, a little bit of powerpoint for an event this evening and yes... photocopying -_-" haha.. but thats cause i didnt have very much to do on the first day.

Been told that my main job will be creating capsules and trailers for the upcoming national day parade and the commentry for the actual national day parade.

Its been nicer than i've expected. I think i'll enjoy this whole expereince. I only need to be at work at 12 today too!! There'll be an event at the maritus mandarin later too, so work is gonna end late tonight.

Happy internship to everyone else!!!

new post

2006-03-24T04:16:00.000+08:00

HEY THERE GUYS!

No... i'm not dead yet =)

In 5 hours time, i'll be recieving my results for last semester... oh man, please give me a decent set of grades... i think i worked hard enough to get at least a B or two.. haha... thanks to all that helped especially the girlfriend for helping me cram for the exams!

In 3 days time, i will start my 20 week long internship at mediacorp radio. 938 Live. Initially... i really really wasnt thrilled at all. Radio was placed as my last choice, Pr and Advertising as my first and second. However, the nice lecturer(s) of Ngee Ann thought that radio would be much better suited for me due to my experience in the band and all that stuff. DAMN!

I wasn't feeling too happy about it initially but i've got something to thank for still. Working at Mediacorp will look pretty decent on my resume and...and...and... okie... i really dont know what else. (The girlfriend will be a block away... haha... thats a good thing).

I've gotten over the tribulation doing radio.. i'll just try my best.

Good night everyone... and please tag my board to say hi!! =P hahahahahhaha...

2006-01-02T23:36:00.000+08:00

Happy 2006!!!!!!

Okie... 2005 had been very bitter sweet. So much has changed, so much has happened. Mostly stuff thats "in the middle" you know like... you dont like how it is but at least you can go "been there, done that." An experience i guess. 2005 has definitly seen me mature, got attached, got a dog and... and.... i cant recall.. yeah, and some stuff i rather not talk about.

Haha... i'm just looking forward to the future. From this year onwards... in 5 more days... I'll no longer be a teenager. How odd cuz i still feel 16. I wanna be 16! I dont wanna grow up and face the real world!! I wanna walk down orchard road with my billabong bag hung so low it cleans the floor like some skater... i wanna go to heeren and look at all the chio girls.... i wanna go play LAN and counter strike... i wanna take neo prints and act cute... okie... i'm so full of shit.

Its kinda sad though... i feel like i havent had any proper achievents for the pass 20 (technically its 19, i know, shut up.) And the band crap and all that... not counted lah...

Thanks to everyone who has made my 2005 memoriable. Thank you Ming for loving me.

I hope i've made a significant impact positively on anyone during 2005.

Lets hope 2006 would be a way better year than 2005. Cheers!!!

Brownie-retard-dog

2006-01-01T17:05:00.000+08:00

Ming Shan demonstrated retreat today... at the foot of my stairs... she suddenly shrieked and ran back up... this is the back shot of the culprit...

I managed to get a head-back shot of him too.....

Soon.. he tried to look retarded to get outta trouble...

Then he tried to act cute......

And finally.. he got bored of me and went to hide under my chair... bye retard... I love you too. haha.

Oh, and Ming is cool with my dog now. =)

2005-12-23T16:21:00.000+08:00

GUYS!!! CHECK THIS OUT!! DIGITAL ART!!! EVEN BETTER THAN ADELINE'S STUFF!!

Now now guys... dun call me stupid. I mean, computers are perfect... so their art should be right? Lemme tell u the story of this vunderfull piece of art i call "WHATTHEFUCK!"

Story:It took us about 3 Hours to create the beautiful piece of art here. We thought, YAY!! lets save it.... but NOOOOOOO.... windows HAD to FUCKING cock up ONCE we were fucking FINISHED with our MRM research question.Yours truely tried his best to salvage the file but to no avail... the residual file left looked like that FUCKING piece of art you see above there. damn it....

Moral of the story: Switch to a MAC as soon as you can. bah.....

2005-12-19T22:35:00.000+08:00

John Mayer - My Stupid Mouth

My stupid mouth
Has got me in trouble
I said too much again
To a date over dinner yesterday
And I could see
She was offended
She said "well anyway..."
Just dying for a subject change

Oh, it's another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one soon

We bit our lips
She looked out the window
Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper
I played a quick game of chess with the salt and pepper shaker
And I could see clearly, An indelible line was drawn
Between what was good, what JUST slipped out and what went wrong

Oh, the way she feels about me has changed
Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one

I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me

Oh I'm never speaking up again
Starting now

One more thing
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard
But it's all because of this desire
I just wanna be liked
I just wanna be funny
Looks like the jokes on me
So call me captain backfire

Oh another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could i forget mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh whats a boy to do?
I guess i better find one

I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me

Oh I'm never speaking up again(x3)
Starting now

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I don't know why but this song suits me in alot of situations.

2005-12-17T13:07:00.000+08:00

Does anyone here have a bottle of Yomeishu at home? Preferbly Unopened... but if it is, thats fine! please tag my board and let me know!!! I need a high res picture of just the bottle!! I'll be so greatful if u have!

stingray

2005-12-16T23:56:00.000+08:00

No-wander Woman Karen shared this story with me...

One day... a friend's friend of hers went on a boating trip with a few buds. It was some sorta week long fishing trip and they stayed on a boat. So one day, this fella.. lets call him Bob was alone on deck... he caught a sting ray. This sting ray was pretty big and bob was bored. Bob turned the sting ray and low and behold! he exclaimed "the stingray's mouth looks like a pussy!" Bod was horny and thus Bob went on and fucked the stingray's mouth...

Bob was so proud of himself and boasted to his friends that he screwed a stingray.

A few weeks later... bob was rushed to a hospital and was soon declared dead. The cause of death was some kind of poisioning and in the doctors autospy... his dick was covered in blisters and bumbs of sorts. Apparently... the venom from the stingray's mouth killed him. I bet he didnt dare see a doctor even though his dick was rotting away.

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA..... THATS THE SADEST AND MOST BLOODY FUNNY STORY I HAVE EVER HEARD LAH!!! KAREN CLAIMED THAT HER FRIEND IS DEFINITLY TELLING THE TRUTH AND I BELIEVE HER!!!!!

Moral of the story: come on lah... guess guess a bit lah.... come one!!!!

Moral of the story: if you want a suck-culent stingray.... have it at Newton Circus =)

a new lease.

2005-12-15T09:39:00.000+08:00

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2005-12-07T00:44:00.000+08:00

This is a pain, and i feel it.
I guess this is all that reamins.
Words of dreams and words to put on,
a show that really mean't nothing at all.
To be kind, it did mean something and i bet it really should. Yes it did.
But the world isnt fair and i guess no one else can really understand or care.
I did put my heart into it and really believed in beliving.
Maybe I lied to myself one too many times.
No one really is to blame,
because this is all just change.
Bye bye enigma man.

2005-12-06T23:58:00.000+08:00

I'm not going try cause you aren't doing so.
I'm not going to change because you'll never be satisfied.
You says its been too long but my question is, don't you want to stop?
You say this is bad but i say we're better off than most. Open your eyes.
You don't know the difference between sarcasm and a decent conversation.
You don't understand what i say because your stuck in that little world of yours.
You dont want to understand cause your afraid of change.
You don't listen cause you don't even know what you want.
It'll be worse if i really stopped caring.
But i'm fucked up because i do.
I'm sorry your lonely.
I should be so lucky.

2005-12-06T13:29:00.000+08:00

How many of you believe in fate? Well... i don't... i'll be damned if fate is real... cuz i think my fate sucks.

Lets all go eat a big huge juicy burger... u know, the kind that makes u feel like ur in heaven for the first bite? My bro stole 3 packs of coffee from my room. fucker. he could have just asked.

I missed school today cuz she was being a pain in the ass. fuck.

At least, i still have a couple of things to look forward too.

Fuck lah... another emo post. I swear if i ever post another stupid incoherent-act-sad post again i'm gonna stop this blog. fuckitty-fuck-fuck. must be school's fault.

2005-12-01T01:59:00.000+08:00

Okie... i'm sure on many instances when you guys go out, you'll see couples around doing stupid couple things like standing close on escalators, standing close in lifts, walking hand in hand, sharing food, talking into each other ears, asking each others things when they already know the answer etc.. you know the deal. It wasnt too long ago when i would laugh at couples being all "into" each other. I would mentally laugh at school-going-looking couples when i see them all lovey-dovey in town and shit. Not because i was jealous but simply because its funny to watch. Now, the jokes on me because it just feels right. But like Yoda would say, "Complaining, I am not" =)

this is the very first incubus song i heard and fell in love with, it makes better sense now. Here is a stanza:

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, Utopian dream.
-I miss you, Incubus

Haha... fuck, i think i am gonna give myself diabetes.

fucking PDF

2005-11-22T00:34:00.000+08:00

WHY CANT THE DAMN LECTS UPLOAD FILES IN MS WORD INSTEAD OR PDF!

I CANT FUCKING PRINT BLACK CUZ MY PRINTER IS OUT. I WANNA CHANGE THE COLOUR SO I CAN STILL PRINT BUT I CANT CUZ ITS IN DAMN PDF.

THIS IS ANNOYING.

life is precious

2005-11-21T22:19:00.000+08:00

My best friend's mom just got admitted to hospital.

Its quite scary really. He is in the same position as me family wise. I guess its very tough when u realise they hey, fuck... money is important... so much more than aspirations because at the end of the day, you'll need to support a family, raise a family, bills needs to be paid for and will have to spend money on unfortunate events like these. Health care is a bitch. I hope his mom gets discharged soon.

Sigh.

mtv part 2

2005-11-17T23:00:00.000+08:00

Just got news that the feature introduction of RAFE is now up on www.mtvasia.com..

Pretty cool stuff.... i thank Pamela for writing such a nice about us.

Again, if you guys are interested... check it out here!

http://www.mtvasia.com/Feature/Introducing/20051116000393/index.html

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haha... i dun give a shit about St Patricks day but that song from John Mayer is awesome...

"We should take a ride tonight around the town
and look around at all the beautiful houses
something in the way that blue lights
on a black night can make you feel more
everybody, it seems to me, just wants to be
Just like you and me"

and thats for you, dear.

mtv asia pod cast

2005-11-16T20:26:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. hey guys, RAFE's interview is now available on

www.mtvasia.com

If you're free, do check it out =)

MTV

2005-11-09T22:39:00.000+08:00

Today was pretty cool.... i was walking to a tutorial with some coursemates when we saw a group of kids encouraging this fella to jump into the pond where the NP teaching hub is... you know... the one with damn icky green water?... yeah.... so... we decided that hey, if someone wanted to do something stupid... we might as well watch and cheer him on...Haha... had bet with Val that the guy wouldn't jump.... he was sitting on the railing. So... there we were clapping and going "jump!" but did he jump? nooooo..... BUT thankfully, his "friend" shoved him down... that was cool... (but poor fella lah.... i would have been fucking embarressed)

Just got back not too long ago from MTV Singapore. We did a podcast for MTV asia and also did an interviewed to be featured on the MTVasia.com site. It was pretty interesting..... Visit www.mtvasia.com in the following few days to check out our feature and podcast! Man... i REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY hope i'll get to intern at MTV.... that place had this really cool vibe about it... sweet.

Josie: Haha... yes yes... film maker first, musician second. You are sooo scene.... riiiight =P
Louisa: Thanks so much, and yes i do remeber! We look forward to that gig and seeing u there!
Ming: right, lesson first!
Ade: haha... it'll be odd with a "rock on" coming out from you.. =) thanks!
Priya: Well, i am totally glad you like it! You need anymore help cutting noodles? haha.

2005-11-09T09:49:00.000+08:00

I am dedicating this URL to all the emo kids out there... or all those who wanna turn emo!!!! haha

http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg/guides/guide-display/-/1BYCAQ7NZ7DT3/103-0498186-6847809

also dedicated to emogo girl!

the truth?

2005-11-08T02:09:00.000+08:00

"We either make ourselves happy or miserable. The amount of work is the same."

A quote which a old friend said to me recently. I guess thats true.

If a facade stems from a projected wanted self image, then wouldn't the self almost be the opposite of that? Nope... it can be anything i guess. Haha... pseudo intellectual bullshit.

Talk is cheap. Shutting up more might prove more useful.

sad truth

2005-11-03T20:10:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, even though every bone in your body wants something, believes it can get something, tries so hard to get that need, the truth is, try as you might, it might not happen... at all.

The worse part of that, i guess, is having to persuade yourself that hey, maybe the sad truth really is the truth.

- okie.... that post must have came from me listening to too much mogwai.

2005-11-01T15:27:00.000+08:00

This is kinda late but guys... check out this article... i think i found it in one of our PR class last sem... had wanted to post this earlier..

http://www.singaporedemocrat.org/articlenkfprotest1.html

i think they need to attend our news writing class.... nowander they are, where they are. The article is a pain to read. What happened to the inverted pyramid! haha... maybe its featuring wrtiting.. but its still bad!

Even the damn title has a basic grammatical error! oh well.

the weirdest convo ever

2005-10-27T14:44:00.000+08:00

this is one of those uber weird convo................ and "Mr-cannot-dance" is ian... lol

uh.howthefuckdoyoudance. says:
yo juan

uh.howthefuckdoyoudance. says:
you know anything about dancing?

[Juan] i'm supposed to be happy but its not like that says:
nope

uh.howthefuckdoyoudance. says:
fuck im screwed

uh.howthefuckdoyoudance. says:
you don't know how to dance?

[Juan] i'm supposed to be happy but its not like that says:
ask val or something

[Juan] i'm supposed to be happy but its not like that says:
no

uh.howthefuckdoyoudance. says:
uh ok.

[Juan] i'm supposed to be happy but its not like that says:
why the fuck do u want to know how to dance?

uh.howthefuckdoyoudance. says:
because i'm fucking going clubbing tonight

uh.howthefuckdoyoudance. says:
rofl. so i need to learn how to fucking dance.

[Juan] i'm supposed to be happy but its not like that says:
ohh...

[Juan] i'm supposed to be happy but its not like that says:
hmm

uh.howthefuckdoyoudance. says:
iin like. 5 hours.

[Juan] i'm supposed to be happy but its not like that says:
just move to the music i suppose

uh.howthefuckdoyoudance. says:
rest of them are telling me to shake

[Juan] i'm supposed to be happy but its not like that says:
u havent club before?

uh.howthefuckdoyoudance. says:
i tried shaking in the mirror

uh.howthefuckdoyoudance. says:
i looked like an idiot

[Juan] i'm supposed to be happy but its not like that says:
this is the weirdest convo ever...

uh.howthefuckdoyoudance. says:
i agree. and i am fucked.

2005-10-24T00:55:00.000+08:00

To get you invites free for PowerJam at ZOUK.... sms "powerjam" to 98209800

Come down and have a rocking good time!

http://www.power98.com.sg/pages/power_jam.php

universal, finally

2005-10-19T20:07:00.000+08:00

(Request for "Perfect Day" by RAFE! Send in a request or dedication to Power98 at 98209800!!!)

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Past few weeks has been really busy and tiring, been doing so much work for the band. But its worth it! Today was pretty cool too, bumped into Eric and Dharma from West Grand Boulevard(WGB). You guys should watch out for them, they are good.

Major thanks everyone who has sent in sms(s) requesting for our song on Power98. I remebered a few days back, we managed to get somewhere on the top 10 requested songs of the day! Thanks guys! But please, continue to help us by requesting for it still!! While ur at it, just dedicate the song to your friends or anyone! We wanna get back on the top 30 list instead! =) next stop had better be Perfect 10! I hope once we start doing the shows planned out for RAFE, things will start getting good and positive again.. haha.....

On a seperate note, anyone interested in going for the Electrico + Rivermaya exclusive Showcase? I have 2 invites (each admits 2)... i have one invite free left... if u want it, PM me!

Oh yeah! I'm also playing with Syawla Evol this saturday for: "Music Maxout's official magazine launch, featuring performances by West Grand Boulevard, Snixtyx, Syawla Evol, Liquid Viridian, and Rio Spirit!"

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I heard this joke from a friend recently:

the christians have the Bible...

The malays (islam) have the Quran....

The chinese in general has the................ Yellow Pages!!!

erm.... yeah, but i find it funny =)

2005-10-12T03:34:00.000+08:00

Guys..... can you all do me like... one favour? haha... but come to think of it.. i'm gonna bug you guys to help me more with this.... i need you guys to help me support my band RAFE on the radio... Power 98 now... perfect ten REALLY soon..

could you guys please send as sms to 98209800 and request for our next single "Perfect Day" or if u would like to hear our first single again, request for "Everything"

You can send in something like "Hey! I'll like to hear Perfect Day from RAFE!" or simply "Perfect Day by Rafe" or anything lah... you can send in ur comments to the station too!!

Thank you guys so much!

On another similar note:

We'll be playing as a guest band on the 26th this month at Zouk along with Electrico, Ronin and Rivermaya for the PowerJam finals!

We're also playing at the Singapore American School Peace Concert 2005 this november 19th! Ronin along with other cool bands like breakfast club will be in the line up!!

Lemme know if your interested in coming down to watch!!

Cheers guys!!

daphne

2005-10-12T01:30:00.000+08:00

I've been living in bukit batok, specifically bukit gombak for a long time now.... every other day... there is a queue of people waiting for the chartered bus to bring them to the bukit batok driving school... through the years... i've seen many pretty young ladies in the line and stuff... but i never really bothered.. i'm not sure if i have ever seen a celebrity there but... there should have been at least one or two..." however on the ONE FREAKING day..... when Daphne Khoo was there! less then a few hundred meters from where i live... i do not happen to "walk by" the damn place! Instead... Don, my guitarist from Syawal Evol saw her and had a chat with her -_- .... damn. FYI.. Don played with her in a band for a very short while i think... either that or they played at the same gig.

So yeah.... found out from Don that daphne is gonna be in some kids program... i think i'll watch more of central now.... and earlier.. on tv.. i found out that daphne is gonna be in a series of the "extreme japan" show on channel 5... sweet... a few days ago at hmv... i saw the shooting stars album... and daphne has a song she composed in it... sweet.... i might just get it... wahahahaha....

Yes, call me messed up =) did i forget to mention this post was about daphne? i have? great... oh.. its Daphne Khoo if u were wondering... you know... Singapore Idol? haha...

Someone shoot me....

after bk

2005-10-08T01:43:00.000+08:00

Alright... i havent blogged in awhile. Was meaning to post something about my trip to Bangkok but its really too much to blog about, all i can say is that, i had a major blast! Really enjoyed my time with you guys!

Hmm... there is currently so much going on and i'm giving myself uncessary stress. I like the way things are going with my involvment on the music front. I hope everything happens just right. I hope everyone would try to support me when the time comes... i'll have to be very thick skinned then to promote myself. haha...

Unfortunately.. i feel like fuck again... my fucking grades are just BAD. I know i've only myself to blame but this time, unlike my others, i dun think i fully deserved what i got. I'm too ashamed to publish mine up. Congrats to all those who did well though. haha.

Was listening to some music late at night yesterday... do u guys feel like, all drama drama at night? listening to weird emo shit from like, Mogwai, Aphex twin and such. those kinda sadistic, sad like fuck music? I was in one of those moods. Like u know, u feel down for no real reason... (okie, that sounds like i i have PMS... haha) when there is actually so much more to be happy about? fuck that shit.

Good night people!

bangkok

2005-09-24T13:02:00.000+08:00

YAY!! Gonna head down for powerjams but more importantly... BANGKOK in 8 more hours! Woo hoo... with 9 cool friends. Will be back on the 29th....

You know what the worse thing than simply being nervous before a competiton? Its waiting for your bloody turn! Arghh... that tight feeling in ur stomach... and ur heart skipping a beat when u think abt being on stage... haha... i sound like such a newbie... man oh man oh man.... i hope this powerjams shit really pulls off... besides, i paid extra for my damn ticket just to get it rescheduled... haha..... oh well... i am so not gonna miss singapore.... trannies and strippers... here i come...

oh yeah, Josie did this for me.. lol:

powerjams again

2005-09-19T14:44:00.000+08:00

Hmm.....

Syawla Evol made it to the semi finals... these are the bands who made it:

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here are the qualifiyers:

No Band Semi-final Set Time

1 Blind Spot 1500

2 Fortissimo 1515

3 Tien 1530

4 B.A.R.B 1545

5 The Great Spy
Experiment 1600

6 Syne of Time 1615

7 Pulse 1630

8 Semblance 1645

9 Monofone 1700

10 Halfestride 1715

11 Syawla Evol 1730

12 Street Sites 1745
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Hmm... okie, yes, i am happy... but now i have a problem.. =

ps

2005-09-18T05:35:00.000+08:00

Today was pretty damn cool... i caught some arts event organised by central something outside of PS... was with Eve and her bro and we laughed our heads of at some othe acts performing i.e. the breakers, the hip-hoppers and the chinese guy, dressed in female clothing doing chinese theater on stage. wahahaha... fuck... i found out i can talk thrash so much about people... but it was hellava funny.

Main reason for being down there was to watch The Leaven Trait play... they were pretty solid, as in tight... but then again, i dun really get punk-rock... haha. Hung out with them at amira's grill after and i think everyone had a cool time. Finally, i understand the workings of sheesha... i used to avoid it cuz it just made me cough.. now its sweet. We has a impromptu sex-ed there... haha...

Meet Ben's friend Josie.. whom i think Eve knows too... and she is pretty cool. It was really nice hanging with the DYL gang again, it feels like such a long time since i met up with em. Today was relatively good.... gonna have powerjams in a few hours time... all the best to Syawla Evol.

2005-09-16T01:44:00.000+08:00

Here is a quick recap of my night... i need to finish PR asap... i am so dead.

Played a show with Syawla Evol at this club... somewhere in Tanjong Pagar called "MOX"... for those who told me its a gay bar... its not... well at least it didnt seem like it. The people in there was normal... but then again, typical "not too responsive" singaporeans. Regarding the set we played, i personally felt my performance was totally sub par... and i feel kinda horrible. Partially also cuz there was this other band there called "IndigoMode" or something... probably a club playing sorta band but they totally kick ass... The only minor good thing that happened was that i talked to their lead guitarist... who was amazing too... and he told me something about how he is looking for another bassist as the band, indigo mode, was breaking up or something and he took my number. Well, no expectations but i hope i recieve a call... i need a job...

We were entitled to drinks since we played there, this bartender was super. He gave us burbon coke (however u spell that) and a jug full of it... with VERY nice parts. I think there was more burbon in there than coke. And here is the kicker... i am kinda out of sorts in my head, but i still have some PR shit to cram... wonderful. I almost succumed to getting some shots too... one for one... but the thought of failing PR totally put me off it. Ah well...

I have a negative feeling about powerjams... but that in turn means a positive thing for thailand... haha... wtf... syawla guys... if u are reading this... i dun mean anything... its just the regular me being negative... bah... maybe thats why my love life is negative too...

[edit] yeah... i was thinking about it and i realise... i stay positive for others but i'm quite negative with myself. oh well... i'm listening to the brand new heavies...

2005-09-12T18:50:00.000+08:00

NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

You know... its bleeding times like this when u realise the IMPORTANCE a SINGLE day makes.

The difference between 23rd and 24th. When you have to choose between Tom Yam Soup and a 5 string. Oh my stupid freaking goodness lah.... wah lao!! why like this?!!!!

Like adeline said "worry when the time comes" but.... arghh... =\

2005-09-10T20:15:00.000+08:00

Has anyone hitched a hike in Singapore before? I used to think it was impossible till today!

Went out to Tuas south ave 5 this early afternoon for a photoshoot with the band and this girl model for the album. blah blah blah.... did the whole thing.... when we were done we called the cab operator but was told that area we were in wasnt even on their map.... so we thought.... lets try to hitch a hike on a truck.... and we were successful. Nice driver took us all the way from Tuas to Boon Lay Mrt... sitting at the back of a pickup is quite cool.... now i understand why those construction workers have that stoned look when they get transported from one end to another... enyoying the wind in the face.. (i'm partially joking)

Oh yeah, you know that you need a tan when first, your mom says your too fair and should get some sun... and second... by getting t-shirt sun tan marks just by standing under the sun for 2 hours...

Last night was pretty damn cool too.... cycled from my place to cck/yew tee and back.. at 3am with the cool wind all around and nice emo tracks playing is really therapeutic...

Ade: If u read my old old post... they are more gay then anything ever...
Val: Shall we have a match in a boxing ring? Just promise me u wun grin like that... =P haha.

2005-09-08T00:13:00.000+08:00

http://www.spikedhumor.com/Article.aspx?id=2050

funny...

fucked up

2005-08-31T14:04:00.000+08:00

Had a major argument with my mom when it wasn't even me that started it, i don't understand how adults can be so fucking thick headed. I don't understand how they expect us to keep quiet and not say something when we feel strongly about something. They expect us to be children from the 80s that quietly nod to everything they say. Like wtf and fuck that.

"Children nowadays, say one thing to them, and they have ten other things to say back." Like, fuck that...

They give shit like "i gave birth to you so you should listen to me and yadayadayada...." i say fuck that because i never asked to be put on this earth anyway. haha, so for a lack of a better word, yeah... fuck.

pk and getting called boring

2005-08-22T00:03:00.000+08:00

I've learnt some stuff about myself recently... well, not really learnt it like *woah! relevation* but more like due to an incident, it became pretty damn clear how i generally like to operate. See, two friends of mine... val and benita (icy stare) decided to create a faux quarrel among themselves just to see how i would handle the situation...

To explain what they did in short, they bitched about each other to me seperately, created a mock quarrel right in front of me and quarrel among each other while i was physically in the middle. What did I (dubbed Mr Boring) do? Well, wonderful... nothing... =\ haha, but thats me... i tried for awhile to reason individually with them but decided not to put my hands directly into things.

How does this make me see what i was like? Easy, firstly, i do not like conflicts and secondly... i think i generally sit on the fence too often... and i guess i do that because i dun like taking sides especially if both people are friends. But to reason again, i did that becuz i honestly thought they were mature enough to handle the situation on their own...

And sadly, they called me boring for not doing anything =( haha... stupid prank... nabei!

Val and benita, you two suck ah! .... =)

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Went out with a local parkour group on sat with my web D group... never thought i would attemp anything remotely similar and i must say it have been an eye opener for me! Thanks to ade and val on coming up with that idea! I've already kinda made up my mind to go back into shape this hols.. and yay! now i have an activity to motivate it! parkour is really cool... u can check out the sport at http://www.parkour.net/ ! or the local on at http://www.pksg-hq.tk/

not to judge

2005-08-18T00:06:00.000+08:00

Hmm... i wanted to post on the subject about how people should be less judgemental of others and how we should all learn to be more tolerent and stop labelling people. But then again, i'm guilty of that too. Its kinda stressful.... alot of us are in a position where by doing something wrong, or NOT doing something for that matter, would cause a possible labeling of being a slacker or worse... an air head... though i must admit... most time, it is our own fault... or mine for that matter.

Do you think we might be a little too harsh to label and condem almost right away? Some people, like me, and i am sure others, just need a little push.. thats all. I know of some people who knows how to bring out the best in others, so i know that it is possible.

I do find myself judging others, but because i know what its like to get judge, i honestly do try my best in being more open. I wun deny though, i do have my bias-ness, but.. haha... i believe those people really deserve it. School work is getting onto everyone's nerves and thus, most of us get irrtated pretty easily... i think thats true of myself.... just gotta get through this last few weeks.

Where is the love y'all? wahahaha black eye peas!!

On a seperate note... i've started exercising... the inertia of "starting" is pretty damn tough... it feels good though... the muscle ache reminds me of the past when i didnt have music and fitness was that i cared abt... now.. i have a growing love handles (thanks to great pratas and late night meals) and a rounder face... okie shit... now i sound like a girl... noooooo *grunt grunt grunt* haha...

stress

2005-08-11T22:31:00.000+08:00

I think my body tries to offset any stress i have by frequent random-ness and semi-funny jokes which i think are hilarious.

Scenario one:

Juan is stressed with PR.... he tried to think of an idea... the word "idea" reminds him of stars (*TING*)... and he comes up with the blue shooting star joke...

Scenario two:

Juan gets so damn bored and with no output to cool off... he decides that the best course of action was to mimick whatever Liz was saying... the look of dis-belief and annoyance provides a temporary relief to the otherwise impending stress PR brings..

Though.. its quite cock... cuz, PR isnt really ALL that hard.. its just my mindless and unproductive negative thoughts that kinda kills me.

See... i believe alot of people thinks like me... basically... we know our problems and we understand the pros and cons of how we operate... but being humans... we cant seem to get outta our nasty habits.

If no one else is like that, and its just me then.... hey! I'm unique! (this is ur cue to laugh*)

riiiiiiiiight.....

Recently, i've started to get very easily annoyed at everything... i think i annoy myself too lah...

Emo siahxxzz..... =)

random

2005-08-11T00:14:00.000+08:00

Sigh... this is my new G.A.S interest... The damn cool... TRB5ll Never really liked yamaha's till i got my BB.. which is good but not great... yet... but i shall not blame the equipment =)

I love the warwicks too but too bad they are ridiculously expensive. My dream is still the Streamer Stage 2 lah... whooping 4k++... =)

Hmm... okie... lemme sort out my thought... before the end of this month i gotta complete:

PR final assignment (Singapore River)
PR Prisons case assignment
Web Design (Le Parkour)
Web Design journal
News Paper project

Now... did i miss anything else? sigh... this is bad...

2005-08-09T21:43:00.000+08:00

I just found this entry by Finicky Feline damn hilarious... it could just be me... but haha, check it out... and guys, learn. Girls are damn weird...

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Ex-girlfriends

The reason why I don’t like hearing about ex girlfriends is because I’m an insanely jealous person. Scorpios are jealous by nature mah. So, it’s in my blood. My mother should have pushed harder, that way I would have come out two days earlier and be born a Libra.

Whatever.

So yeah. I hate knowing about ex girlfriends because the questions would inevitably emerge:

Who’s prettier - me or her?
This is a trick question of course. There’s no correct answer. You’re gonna get into deep shit either way, so be prepared.

Did you love her more or do you love me more?
This question has only one answer. If you don’t know or you hesitate even just one second, you’re so fucking dead. The answer is “You, of course!” You’re an idiot if you give some honest reply that you loved her in a different way, bla bla bla. And so fucking dead.

Do you still love her?
No matter what your answer is, the correct answer is “No”. By God, do not launch into a monologue about how she still has a place in your heart, bla bla bla. The correct answer is “No”. Say it with me - No no no no no.

The reason for this entry is that I was looking through my GCB’s laptop (in his presence of course) when I came across pictures of him and his ex. I asked the questions, he answered correctly (he must have had a lot of practice) and I was a happy camper. At his encouragement, I deleted them and emptied his recycle bin. Man, this guy’s really smart.

But I’m not stupid lor. I know he has an external hard disk with backups of everything. But I will pretend to be stupid and pretend I don’t know it exists.

Sometimes, a relationship needs a pinch of pretence and a dose of ignorance, doesn’t it?

2005-08-08T11:30:00.000+08:00

This is a freaking nice song... well, i dun feel "that" emo lah... but this song just makes you feel sad for her...upcoming super star... soon she'll become like damien rice and become commercialised. So you heard it here first! Haha, right... must give credit.. Awi introduced this to me, and thank goodness he did. Awesome.

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Rachael Yamagata - happenstance

"Be be your love"

If I could take you away
Pretend I was queen
What would you say
Would you think I'm unreal
'Cause everybody's got their way I should feel

Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real
Want to be your everything

Everything...

Everything's falling, and I am included in that
Oh, how I try to be just okay
Yeah, but all I ever really wanted
Was a little piece of you

And everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real

Everything will be alright
If you just stay the night
Please, sir, don't you walk away, don't you walk away, don't you walk away
Please, sir, don't you walk away, don't you walk away, don't you walk away

And everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real

And everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real

I want to be your love, love, love

bad luck

2005-08-04T11:20:00.000+08:00

Hmm... i wonder how my day would be like? Lemme see... this morning, i realised my wallet was missing... i was at home at 7.30 and i had a radio test to take at 8.15.... hmm.. thats good.... lemme see.... for the radio test, i got a C grade... thats nice.... walking down the steps toward the convention hall basement, i wondered what it would be like if i slipped while holding my laptop... lo and behold! I slipped on the staircase and dropped my laptop... hmm... cool, now the cd drive wun work and it's physically stucked...

I'VE A FUCKING BAD DAY LAH! NA BEI.... =(

and its only 11.23am.. not even the afternoon yet... wonderful... gonna have a huge bruise..

rafe on the charts

2005-08-03T02:34:00.000+08:00

Alright, this is kinda cool, i just found out from a friend that Rafe is actually on the charts... at the top 16! I'm glad but when u concider that backstreet boys is number 5.... well... something is amiss... haha. Anyway... they are holding another PowerJam competition... in it, they have two new "rules"... One the winning band this year will be under an artist management and that the cash money will be given into stages, half after winning, and half after completion of the album (which is also the prize). I'm laughing now... but because i find it funny and also because i'm kinda upset Rafe is taking forever. No one is truely to blame for the whole damn delay of the album... but waiting almost a bloody year for a damn 6 track release is... for a lack of a proper word, dumb.

I thank all my friends and possibly fans for still asking me when the album will be out and still having some sorta interest in Rafe. There is just... so much... or isit so little... going on in the individual lives of each member. Maybe the realisation of how freaking difficult it is to "make it" musically or something... wadever i duno.. killed the passion in Rafe. Rafe as in, the Rafe that won Power Jam.

Right now.. all of us are still pre-occupied with music... Awi has his malayband Bhumi plus his various singing pub jobs... Jordan is busy playing at Indochine... Robin... okie, i have no idea, probably just stuck with NUS stuff... and here i am, trying to make the best of my musical situation... just a shit load of practice and waiting and searching for that next big break.

I wun throw away music for nothing, even if there is no tangible returns... the magic is in simply making it. Right now... i'm kinda of happy playing in Syawla Evol... i'll see where i can bring that, or it can bing me.

Yes, back to Rafe, dun worry (is that for me or for the possible fans and friends of the band?) Rafe is not dead... in so many aspects... when we do make a comeback... with new material or new anything, i am dead sure its gonna make it... now... if only i have that sorta commitment or passions with my school work.... but fuck... i do have commitment and passion for my school work.. it just aint working out too well this sem =( wadever...

Eve, so how? I heard u talked to Ben... if ur serious, i can be =) Awi, you too, if ur serious about whatever, i can totally be too. Syawla Evol, if we guys are meant to make it, i'm sure we can. Juan, if you only start letting loose and beliving in God more, maybe he'll give you what you seek?

My index finger hurts from practicing... please dun let me get artiritis or something... haha. No not funny....

2005-08-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

Those interested in Selling your wares or looking for stuff, come down here!! You might just find something you've always wanted!!

And while i'm still here, if ur free, and have always wanted to check out halo bar... now is the best time!!

promtion so syawla evol

2005-07-26T22:37:00.000+08:00

Heys guys!! Only 4 more days to go before my gig with "Syawla Evol" at the Esplande

Outdoor Theatre at 7.30pm!!

If you're free, do come down!! =)

john mayer - new deep

2005-07-20T21:00:00.000+08:00

John Mayer
"New Deep"

I'm so alive
I'm so enlightened
I can barely survive
A night in my mind
I've got a plan
I'm gonna find out just how boring I am
And have a good time

Cause ever since I tried
Trying not to find
Every little meaning in my life
It's been fine
I've been cool
With my new golden rule

Numb is the new deep
Done with the old me
And talk is the same cheap it's been

Is there a God?
Why is he waiting?
Don't you think of it odd
When he knows my address?
And look at the stars
Don't they remind you of just how feeble we are?
Well it used to, I guess

Cause ever since I tried
Trying not to find
Every little meaning in my life
It's been fine
I've been cool
With my new golden rule

Numb is the new deep
Done with the old me
And talk is the same cheap
It's been

I'm a new man
I wear a new cologne and
You wouldn't know me if your eyes were closed
I know what you'll say
'This won't last longer than the rest of the day'
But you're wrong this time
You're wrong

Numb is the new deep
Done with the old me
I'm over the analyzing
Tonight

Stop trying to figure it out
(you try to figure, you try to figure it out)
It will only bring you down
You know, I used to be the back
porch poet with my book of rhymes
Always open knowing all the time I'm problably
Never gonna find the perfect rhyme
For 'heavier things'

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John Mayer is awesome... and i'll try everyday, little by little to live like this song...

fourplay

2005-07-18T16:44:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah... anyone has any album by fourplay? Preferbly the "best of fourplay" album... i'll lend u my Fourplay dvd if u lend me the CD!! =) give me a couple of light years and i might play like that.

emptiness

2005-07-18T15:09:00.000+08:00

Okie, first and foremost... here is a short anouncment:

Will the person whom i lent my Jane's addiction CD to please stand up. I stupidly forgot who i lent it to and i miss that CD. Do reply!!!!

Okie... thats that.

Bay Beats:

I didnt attend the whole thing.... well, only caught one and a half band there. Came down specifically to catch B-quartet which is my favourite band in Sg. The rocked. 'nuff said. Decided to stay a little and listen to My Squared Circle, a band that has apprently been in the scene a long time. Maybe i am biased, maybe i was tired, maybe i just didnt want to listen anymore, but.... they surely didnt sound fantastic.... fine, i didnt stay the whole set, on 2 and a half songs, but i left cuz i didnt like it. Oh well....

I guess i shouldnt have missed the event but oh well.... next year perhaps? When it isnt an exclusive club anymore? =)

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I fianlly managed to repay my sleep debt today.... slept from 3am to 3pm... thats abt 12 hours. Finally.... but the strangest thing is... upon waking up, i kinda feel like... "fuck, i wasted alot of time today.." and also "okie.... am i supposed to be doing something now?" but PR assignement is done... so i guess not eh. And thinking abt PR, i wonder if val is pissed or something... are u val??

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I've decided to spend today doing a few things....

1) pack up my damn room
2) practice
3) re-create the Rafe site..

On the topic of Rafe... was at the studio yesterday, i'm glad, everything is done, just some final mixing down and we are already in talks for album design and stuff... finally.

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i'm feeling slightly shitty for things beyond my control. Now, if thats not dumb, i really duno what is. =) Actually i'm pretty happy lah, if i block those out... okie, wth am i talking abt... bye!!

something to say

2005-07-14T17:19:00.000+08:00

I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY!!

DOWN

DOWN

DOWN

DOWN

DOWN

DOWN.....

i ate a whole big bag of chips.... and i feel sick....... damn.

Morale of the day: Dun eat a whole bag of chips.... share. =)

Bye....

letting go...fucking hard.

2005-07-12T23:56:00.000+08:00

I see you around, its inevitable. Yet everytime your somewhere near i feel afraid/cocky/apprehensive/pissed/sad/happy/longing. Alot of stuff... its almost like your the perfect person someone would love to hate... but its really not like that.

Sure, i have my side of the story and you have yours but at the end of it all, given the chance, i sure would like to be a friend. I'm not hard up to be your friend, but i'm not the sort who can easily remove people from my life. People whom i had genuine cared for at least. You might have moved on, and hey, good for you. I've moved on too, but it is hard to really let go of a friendship (or what i think it might have been) due to petty misunderstandings and egotistical attitudes... probably on both our sides.

People tell me your not worth even thinking over, and i tell myself that too. But its hard to deny how i still feel even after all this time. I'll still like to be ur friend. I have no agenda, no motive, no nothing. I just miss you for who you are, even if you havent changed a bit... i hope, i think.

But after all that has been said and done, with attempts at mending what i would call a "good cause for the hopeless" it truely seems to be just that, hopelessness.

Haha... but being me, i always try to look for the silver lining even among black thread.... wadever that means. Maybe thats why i dun let go that easily. I hope u truely enjoy life. Maybe our path will pass again.

I hope i never post something like this again. Its just not me.

finally, a breather

2005-07-11T22:06:00.000+08:00

Finally, with Commiss, News Writing and Web D projects done, i can take a VERY short breather. Gonna start other projects earlier... haha, but for now.. . i'll just pract to be like victor wooten... wahahahahahahahahaha =)

Anyway... who wanna be my sugar mommy? I'm broke... maybe you wanna buy my time and personality? haha.... i wun charge much... i promise! =)

random

2005-07-11T00:34:00.000+08:00

Right.. i feel stupid for starting on my work so late... i hate it that i am submitting last min work again... most of all... i really just wanna do better... oh damn... someone just kick me...

I've a damn headache now... i think i'll just crash....

new band

2005-07-10T14:41:00.000+08:00

Hey guys... i am VERY excited.

CLICK ON THIS >>>http://www.agingyouth.com/gigs_site/upcomingigs.htm

edit (here are some pictures of us!)

Okie... yes, this band i am playing for will be playing at the esplande along many other funk bands i respect. Just check out this involved on the link...

Well, the picture on the site there isnt updated because i have only just joined that band... less then a month back. Been practicing with them and i am excited because i love the material they have. More then that, this is the first funk band i am playing in and i do love funk oh so much!

Do make urselves free on the 30th of this month... JULY!!! 7pm at the esplande outdoor theater. It would mean alot to me for you guys to come down!!

its been such a long time man...

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On a very seperate note that isn't very seperate... my best Bud and lead Vocals for both Rafe and Bhumiband has a resident spot playing with a club band at Timbre (the old fat frog behind the substation). I'll be heading down this friday to catch out his first, of many other, performances there!! I'm calling out to all my friends and anyone else interested in checking the place out to come down!! Went there a few days back while E.I.C (the band that plays at wala wala and others) was on set... the sound is awesome... the setting is pretty cool too. To me, it was kinda unique =) Below is an extract from Awi's blog. This month is gonna be cool.... EXCEPT.... I havent done news writing even at this point yet =( i think i am gonna lose 20%.. chuck it... Its all on the One.

(From -> http://awirafael.blogs.friendster.com/awirafaelthe_story/)

"make your Friday nights mine!

okay people

here's the latest update to my music.I managed to secure a deal with the management of Timbre Music Cafe (actually the old Fat Frogs) and thus will be playing there with my own band every fridays,10.30-1.30am.(from next week onwards.) If you dig indie/alternative/songwriters music such as say..stereophonics,the wallflowers,nada surf,ryan adams etc.. come on down with your friends or partners!The place is really cool and the pizzas there are well,fucking amazing!

Curious?Good.
See you there.

Every Fridays
10.30-1.30 am
Armenian Street.(behind Substation)
$3 from Orchard Rd,so taking taxi is easy and cheap!
nearest MRT is City hall.

any questions,just tag. "

finally

2005-07-09T16:44:00.000+08:00

Alright, fianally, for this half of them sem, everything is almost done... all except the blasted news report i need to come up with by this monday. I don't know why but i almost do not feel like trying anymore.

Only got back from last night at about 7am... the show DYL organised at Garage studio was quite successful.... ticket sales was good but better then that, there was this band "A Vancant Affair". They were good... and i like their attitude... well, from what i have seen for the first time at least.

Hung out at "the alley bar" for a good part of the night... though, i was stoning most of the time... i was extremely tired anyway... Johnnie walker's black label is a horrible drink... haha... this time, i tried, but "could" not drink. A headache and tiredness coupled with the memories of the other night totally put me off alchohol. haha... my friends tell me i'll take that back soon enough.. we'll see.

I found out more about what she has done, and this time... i wasn't just dissapointed, but i'm actually really sad. I wonder if this situation now is the resolved situation or will there will be something else new? It feels unresolved because there is still so much left unanswered. I'll see... we'll all see.

I'm bored... really bored.

steven lim and daphne

2005-07-07T18:33:00.000+08:00

TOTALLY WTH.... they put Daphne Khoo and that nut case Steven Lim in the same room for an interview... what he reported in his "blog" is damn... gross... haha..

"I was invited by some budding Mass Com students from Ngee Ann Polytechnic for a student project TV interview. They invited powerhouse Daphne Khoo from Singapore Idol as well. (now a year 1 mass com student in NP too). They initially wanted to invite Jeassea Thyidor to the show, but could not get her. I was pretty sad cos I will miss Jeassea's cowboy style! But I liked Daphne immediately once I saw her. She is not exactly beautiful but she is damn cute like a puppy n her Caucasian-accent English turns people on. How I wish I can speak like her! This young lass even sings with the host when crews are busily adjusting the lightings. I wanted to join in the singing, but was embarrassed to ask what song is that. Thinking to myself whether they will be impressed if i sing "Twinkle Twinkle little stars" or think that I m a retard? I decided to keep my mouth shut to save any silly embarrassment. Interview was fine, ending with a big bang! Both of us were treated to a big pic-taking session where students pose with us. Celebrity treatment!! I love it. Thanks, NP mass com! If you are reading this, Daphne, I really appreciate your talents. Pls contact me if you are interested to carry out the international special project with me."
- www.stevenlim.net

- She is not exactly beautiful but she is damn cute like a puppy n her Caucasian-accent English turns people on (what the hell?!!)...

drunk

2005-07-05T00:50:00.000+08:00

i finally understand what it is like to get really high on alchohol... i must say... its a super feeling, nothing else matters and you just feel happy... but i think that good feeling lasts for only a couple of hours.... it totally sucks when it leaves you feeling like shit the entire next day... i think what happened last night will put me off alchohol for a pretty long time... damn it... i still feel like shit now.... i dun think i've drank that much before.

Now i know why the call it "Happy Hour".... but what they forgot to add was... "but get ready to feel like crap after". =
Thanks guys for helping me out... and Ave, nice place u got there =)

2005-07-03T12:54:00.000+08:00

Marry Me Jane - "You didn't kiss me"

You didn't kiss me how can I fall asleep?

I know you're there, but don't pick up cause I'll say everything
I know you don't care, you made that clear enough as I was leaving
I took your favorite overcoat, just wanted to return it
I know it's late, you're probably out, that's what you wanted anyway
I know how you hate it when I get too loud, but John you know I'm crazy
I'm wrapped around your favorite overcoat, don't think I can return it

You didn't kiss me
How can I fall asleep?
You didn't wish me very well
To say the least
Do you miss me?
If you said so should I believe you?
You didn't kiss me..

Hate your laugh, hate your lies, hate the chance I took on you
Hate the past in your eyes, hate the war you put me through
Hate myself for believing this could come to anything at all

I'm wrapped around your favorite overcoat
Don't think I can return it

How can I fall asleep?
You didn't wish me very well
To say the least
Do you miss me?
If you said so should I believe you?
You didn't kiss me

Isn't this song sadly beautiful? I like it alot....

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Not so random stuff:

- Caught Live 8 with a couple of friends at chijmes last, was pretty cool, but the night was too humid for me...

- Swee Lee is having a 50% sale...

- Still want to join NP's band to play the trumpet or bass for the combo band...

- a friend's house warming to attend this evening

- Rafe album is 95% complete, with only mastering and one final guitar track to be put down

- Everything still feels quite tentative to me

- Helping out a bunch of mcm year 2 TV production students to do a talk/interviews show along with ave.

- Have yet to touch my assignments

- Need to excersise....

looking for love

2005-07-01T20:09:00.000+08:00

A friend who i appreciate quite alot for his humility and good nature recently broke up with his gf and he said this:

"i suddenly realize what it feels like to be unhappy again."

I guess i dun know the circustance of his break up, but its sudden. I hope if u do get to read this you feel better and all.

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That sentence though... in the reverse, is somewhat similar to what i have in my mind, i'm looking for that person whom i can say,

"You bring me happiness."

But given the way i am, haha, its sure gonna be hard lah. Damn it... i'm sure this post was partially caused by listening to Elliot Smith's - "Say Yes".

Its just one of those stupid love song that sounds so good...

feeling like shit

2005-06-28T21:35:00.000+08:00

I'm currently feeling pretty down, everything is getting to me right now.

I'm sure most people live life with a purpose, and they live each day purposefully because they have a goal or dream. I do too, except, with recently, that dream seems harder and harder to reach. And i'm upset because of it. And no one will fully understand how i feel unless you're in the same shoe as me.

I know the advice of how the journey is more important, and i know its naive to expect too much but this is my prime and i want it now, not later. When am i gonna get a good break with people willing to follow through with me on it? Every damn achievement i get has been fickle and every dream i had dreamt of had worn out its novelty except this. Except this isn't a novelty anymore, this is something i really want and love. I really hate to act excited over something i know isn't exciting anymore.

Other then that, another stupid problem is this: i realised that i'm not too sure about what i want. I thought i had been, but i'm not sure now. Gimme a sign or something. Everyone searches for happines right? Mine is just one huge warp ball.

now thats alot of rambling... but thats how i feel right now - messed up.

psalms 126:2
it is useless to work so hard for a living, getting up early and going to bed late. for the Lord provides for those he loves, while they are asleep.

Hopefully i can leave it to that.

malaysia trip

2005-06-24T00:09:00.000+08:00

Malacca trip this weekend + Comm issues assignment due on tuesday + Web Design due on Friday + New Writing article due on friday too + lack of sleep

=

Major trouble.

The kicker is that... i have yet to really touch them... and i can only start proper this monday.... someone please shoot me..... but dun tell me i should have started earlier... i know. Argh.

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why cant i do this instead of school work? i know! i'll do it after school works done!

latest again

2005-06-15T23:12:00.000+08:00

Well... lets start with what i am really happy with... i finally got myself an iPod!!! And thus, i am happy! haha....

On the downside... my school work is way ahead of me... and it sucks playing catch up (beni, that day ah, it was basically bad timing, i know u mean well) radio is due tomorrow and i seriously dun like what i am doing but i think it'll suffice.

Recently, i've realise that my playing ability has kinda decreased, i'm not as smooth and all... this is really bad... and i think its because of stress and lack of sleep.. sigh.

Hmm... i remebered coming online to blog specifically about something but it has stupidly slipped my mind... ah well... my left eye still feels weird and that sucks too... i hope its not an infection =
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stupid picture of the day!

call me sick... but thats seriously hilarious...

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Val Lim: there, done the quiz! haha.. and i'll pass u the baybeats sticker when i see u again.

Eve: you are as bad a tiko as i am ah! dun deny.. Maaaaaaaaaybe ah.. Maaaaaaaaybe.. wahahha

Keshia: NO!! i havent seen her! Ngee Ann cant be that big!!!
Ming: haha... =x

kiss?

2005-06-15T23:10:00.000+08:00

Part Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges
If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story
You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses
A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

Part Playful Kisser

Kissing is a huge game for you, a way to flirt and play
You're the first one to suggest playing spin the bottle at a party
Or you'll go for the wild kiss during a game of truth or dare
And you're up for kissing any sexy stranger if the mood is right!

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

Haha, i'll like to think that is quite accurate... anyone there wanna find out? *grins*

stupid shit

2005-06-12T01:46:00.000+08:00

Haha.. here is the latest...

- i bought a remote controlled car from Toys R us.. its called "Baja Buster" its real cool =)

- I bought a bass from a friend and got it at a really good price...

- I attended City Harvest twice, its pretty nice there... and i feel the need to get back in touch with God

- I'm supposed to do my Radio Script but i am wasting my time now.

- Ave, Syed and Me are forming a top 40s band and we are searching for either a guitarist or a keyobardist.. or both.

- I REALLY wish i have the cash for an IPOD... too bad i blew it on the bass.

- I have stickers of the upcoming Baybeats... anyone wants? i've abt 30 pieces...

- I found out some stuff about baybeats and i am pretty pissed.

- I'm NOT playing for Baybeats =(

- There are tons of bands in singapore now... thats good.

- I still think Daphne Khoo is cool... and that ryhmes...

i'm bored..... Someone excite me... =)

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Here is ur stupid picture of the day...

low tech.............

i am mr brown

2005-06-12T01:42:00.000+08:00

Congratulations Juan, you are...

mr brown of www.mrbrown.com

Like that ad for Toys 'R Us, you are that kid who doesn't want to grow up. Except you do. And now you're just a big overgrown kid who doesn't want grow up. You have a warped yet addictive sense of humour. It takes skills to poke fun at serious things and you have no problems doing that. Your peers look up to you and yet you're humble about everything. You are an infantile.

Which Singaporean Blogger Are You?

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I am that kid who doesn't want to grow up?!!! How dare that quiz?!! Does buying a remote control car and happily carrying the Toy R Us bag home make me so? Does enjoying the oddness of this world and laughing at weird people on the MRT make me so? I dun think so!!!! i'm not a kid who doesnt wanna grow up... i'm NOT a kid... really... i'm not =) Now... anyone has a R/C car? wanna go race with me? =)

rafe single on air

2005-06-06T01:36:00.000+08:00

Well.... i guess its time to update! First of all lemme start with a VERY shameless plug...

Rafe's single "Everything" is on POWER 98 FM! =) PLEASE PLEASE request for us! And hey, if u happen to hear it, do tell me what you think =) I'm gonna be very shameless abt my band from now on.... need to promote it before the album is released mah! =)

Okie, haha... hmm, come july... there will be this show at the esplande featuring bands that play funk/rnb/jazz type music.... Swalya Evol asked me to session for them and i am damn happy abt it.... they have good music =) This mid june (which means i will skip school abit) .... the bands within Double Yellow Line will be heading down to malaysia to play a few shows =) haha... and i am glad... Bathroom Acoustics has some pretty kick ass material now =)

On a different note... i know i am doing the bloody opposite from what i had aspired to do... which is to study harder this bloody term... but since school started, i have either been "wasting" my time playing, or working... i'm TOTALLY not in the mind for school... and i have this feeling that something bad is gonna happen to me =(

Guys, if u work with me in school, or we do work together, seriously, if i am goofing off too much, can u just tell me to focus... as in, for real lah... i got this bloody tendency to take alot of things too lightly... and i dun wanna get burned this sem.... in whatever way i might.

I like you too much to tell you i do.

incubus girl

2005-05-29T14:07:00.000+08:00

Southern Girl

Is everything a baited hook?
and are there locks on all doors?
if your're looking for an open book
look no further, I am yours

We'll behave like animals
swing from tree to tree
we can do anything
that turns you up and sets you free

You're an exception to the rule
you're a bonafide rarity
you're all I ever wanted
southern girl, could you want me?

So come outside and walk with me
we'll try each other on to see if we fit
and with our roots, become a tree
to shade what we make under it

We'll behave like animals
swing from tree to tree
we can do anything
that turns you up and sets you free

You're an exception to the rule
you're a bonafide rarity
you're all I ever wanted
southern girl, could you want me?

You're an exception to the rule
you're a bonafide rarity
you're all I ever wanted
southern girl, could you want me?
southern girl, could you want me?
southern girl, could you want me?
southern girl, could you want me?
southern girl, could you want me?
southern girl, could you want me?
southern girl, could you want me?
southern girl...

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I really dun need to mention whose song this is right? Haha... could you want me?

new bass

2005-05-22T00:45:00.000+08:00

http://www.warwickbass.com/basses/streamer_lx.html

14 more days... =)

love quiz

2005-05-16T01:01:00.000+08:00

yes... i am very cool and hip... but this next entry might make me sound downright silly... yes... as much as i try not too... i did one of those "quizes" u find everywhere online... here are my results! (its in this annoying pink colour too.. wad gives?!)

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

that particular night out with the devil

2005-05-13T00:44:00.000+08:00

Hmm... school is about to start soon... since the holidays, Jon and me have had wanted to go out with Liz and Gwen like last time but i guess that hasnt happened... hopefully next week would be better... this holiday unlike the last one, it seems everyone is really busy... though people i know are spending their time quite productively... if its not working... its organising events... or just pursuing their hobbies...

hmm... i've been slacking quite alot... i've done most of my part for the album.. i know i've told people before that i would NEVER work in an FnB establishement again unless i own the place but truth and behold... i'm working in a restaurent somewhere in town... the pay is alright.. i wanted to quit the very first day i started but the GM of that place is just too nice (he tells me to work smart, not work hard... and helps me get food from the kitchen... and alot of other funny shit).. i'll bare with it for now... the extra money will be handy, i wanna get more music gear..

hmm... FMS orientation is coming.. this 20th.. i am looking forward to it.. even though the damn t-shirt is pretty.. crappy.... i'm pairing up with Ming to manage a class... looking forward to seeing all those eager faces... i shall come up with loads of bullshit and try to scare them... haha... mass commers...

riiiiiiight..... even as i type, this post sounds freaking monotonous.... hmm.... yes... monotonous... damn.. i need to sort out some thoughts...

2005-05-08T02:21:00.000+08:00

my dear double yellow line mates got bored and decided to make a list that my name can fit in... presenting... the juans..

juantanah merah
juan tan mee
juanita
juander wall
juan inch punch
juan eighty
juance upon a time in china
Catch 22 - juan234 juan234
juan night in beijing
"mic check", "juan 2"
juan for the money two for the show
juanlittle2little3littleindian
juan a ciggie?
Dr. Evil :" JuuuanMillionnn dollars!"
juan people juan nation juan singapore
all in juan piece
it takes juan to know juan
girls just juan na have fun
in juan ear and out the other
juan time i was at this shop and...
well theres more than juan way to skin a cat
juan to hear a joke?
back to square juan then!
fugees : trumming my pain with his fingers...juan time...juan time
ok lets have a fast juan
i was juance a little girl
dont put all your eggs in juan basket
juan love people, juan love
so if we've lost, then he's juan hasnt he
u may have juan the battle but the war is not lost!
BonJovi : Juanted! Dead or Alive!
8th world juander
just juan more la
dojuan lah!
do you only juanna dance?
juanna go lancing mai?
she juans to move
people got juan right foot and juan left foot
you see juan million words cant describe how it feels to know your love

haha... got it from http://www.livejournal.com/users/psykedahlia/21566.html

wad class for year two?

2005-04-29T20:57:00.000+08:00

EH guys... wad class are you people all in?!! Tag my board and tell me please!!! =)

warwick basses

2005-04-25T22:27:00.000+08:00

When are the idiots at "Guitar Connection" in Peninsular Hotel/Excelsior Hotel ever gonna fucking return my bass back? I sent it in on the 9th of April with them telling me i can have it back in about 5-6 days. (i sent it in to repair the neck). And now.... its the 25th of april.... it better bloody be done by tomorrow cuz i miss that thing.

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Now... a little free advertisement for Warwick Basses....

Once again, all you Bassist or bassist wanna-bes out there.... thinking of buying your very first bass or simply looking to upgrade your current gear? Look no further because at Warwick... their basses has everything you could want!! Enough of those cheapo made-in-korea/china/indonesia knock offs..... ALL Warwick (except the rockbass series) are made in Germany. That said... German made products are famous for their exceptional quality and build (and beautiful wood selection).

Now more about the sound.... Warwick makes basses that not only has good electronics to make it sound superb it also uses top notch woods that makes it sound awesome (Bubinga necks and Wenge fingerboards!!).

Looking for very well defined lows, biting mid-end and crystal clear highs? Try a Warwick.... until you hear it's signature growl... then you'll understand why its slogan says
"The Sound Of Wood".

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I'm a proud owner of a Warwick Streamer Standard 5.... yes.... Its now outta production but hell i like it...

http://www.warwickbass.com/basses/streamer_std.html

Now this is my dream bass....

Warwick Streamer Jazzman
http://www.warwickbass.com/basses/streamer_jazzman.html

freaking nice..... sigh.... maybe one day when i actually get down to saving? Haha... constantly having G.A.S... gear aquiring syndrome....

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ps gig

2005-04-23T02:32:00.000+08:00

Honestly, i wasn't really looking forward to the gig i just has at PS... but besides the very bad sound set-up i am happy it went alright.

Huge shout-out to the DoubleYellowLine people for doing a fine job once again even though the equipment was less then good. Honestly, you can always count on people from the DYL team to do a good job. Proud to be associated with them team!!

Secondly and also VERY importantly, i am really thankful for everyone who came down and to anyone who stayed to hear us. I know its only common courtey to thank people but i want you guys to know that i mean every "thank you" i say. Its people like you guys who supports me and my band that spurs us (me) to play better.

On a personal note, thanks again goes out to the entire DYL team... especially my Fireroz or tiding me over with ur bass while mine is at the work shop... friends from school namely Eve, Beni, Ming, Serene, Fi, Charm... the guys from another cool band Arpee (louis, Ari and Ais), Shawn and company, Jem, Saha, Winnie, guys from the very cool Bhumi Band and all our other fans and supporters (you know who u are). Thank you =)

Lastly, to my friends cum band mates, u guys rock. Lets live this dream without regret.

This sounds like some stupid award speech.... haha.... i'm just thankful lah...

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Haha... check out some graffiti styled graphics done for us by Nura, Fiona and Nataz

nura

fiona

nura

nataz

Our next show is at Riverside@indoor stadium. 7pm onwards i think.... this 4th of May. See anyone who can make it there!! It'll be a blast! 2 sets both abt 45 min... will be doing some covers originals (plus some new ones).

insomnia

2005-04-22T05:11:00.000+08:00

This is fucking irritating... its 5.12 am and i am not sleepy. I think the last few major late nights have really screwed my body clock. I want to sleep but i cannot. I think its partially cuz i have quite abit on my mind right now... arghh...

To a dear friend who most probably would not read this... Sometimes i wish you could talk to someone/anyone about problems u might be facing and at least share wads going on. I know it might be out of your character to confide in anyone but urself, however everyone needs an outlet. So many times u get that very weary look on ur face and that super tired voice, u need to chill. Anyway you can trust me to have your back covered in anyway i can man.

"I want to be a star"
I want us to share the dream.

2005-04-21T14:35:00.000+08:00

Second semester results are out... i must say i did pretty shitty again like last sem's. This time, i think i'll blame the whole band thingy for my grades... but fuck it, come what may...

On a good note, I'm lucky i passed everything. Due to a certain incident ragarding Media in Society, before our final exam i had a F grade... so i guess getting a D overall is pretty alright.

Lastly, all of us also gotta thank Mr Choy... he happily helped us pull down our grade average with his ultra tough marking... haha.

Sigh.

spider

2005-04-19T03:22:00.000+08:00

Legless Spider-man....

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

when U sweep ur room

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

maybe u dun get it

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

but

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

whoohoo eh thanks juan!

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

u find these... harmless but freaking creepy spiders with long legs?

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

well

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

yeah i do

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

i moved my bass amp back

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

you're keeping one as a pet?

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

and there was this one...

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

so i took a box.. and smashed it...

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

!!!!!!

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

HOW COULD YOU!

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

when i looked at the box..

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

POOR LITTLE LONG LEGGED SPIDER!

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

its leg came off... one of it on the box... one on the floor..

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

and they were still freaking TWITICHING ALOT!!!

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

JUST THE LEG!!

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

OH FUCK

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

SHUT UP.

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

yeah

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

i was like

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

WTH...

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

oh my god..

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

it was twitching like a fish outta water.... except the fish is intact and this is just the leg

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

damn sad lah the spider, HAHAHAHAH

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

SHUT UP!!!!

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

HAHAHAHHAHA

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

eh could you blog that please.

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

hjahahhahahhaha

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

the leg was at least 1 and a half cm long

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

how did it twitch?

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

take ur index finger

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

like spasm kind of twitch? or a slow agonising twitch

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

SPASM!!!

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

oh shit.

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

yeah man

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

that is damn disgusting.

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

take ur finger

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

and like

[Juan] I dont know where we are going now... says:

wiggle it quick

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

i hope you gave it a proper burial.

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

okay wiggling it

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

HAHA OKAY

EVE! my love letter typewriter. says:

HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA

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I hate spiders.... actually... i hate all insects.... call me a wuss.... but imagine one (or more) in ur pants.... =)

audio street

2005-04-18T02:00:00.000+08:00

Okie... quite silly but i created a profile for myself on Audiostreet.net

Here is the (quite-empty-except-for-some-pics) page...

http://www.audiostreet.net/profile.aspx?profileid=62730

2005-04-18T00:42:00.000+08:00

I was reading Jon's post and what he said about friendships in our school kinda strikes me as something... how should i put this.... okie, simply sad.

I was watching this film called battle royale... where a class of students had no choice but to kill each other in order for someone to be the sole survivor to win and live. I was telling my friend that if i was on that game, i think i would die early cuz i am the sort who would like to believe i can be friends with anyone and work together. Though lately and in general, i realise that its always a good idea to be cautious around people for you never know if they might hold hidden agendas. At the end of the day... you dun wanna be taken for a ride.

Maybe thats the problem in our school? Maybe we're nice to each other cuz we expect something in return? Maybe its because we know that sooner or later, we will have to work together thus the friendly exterior to keep the peace? Maybe thats why, beyond the chummy chummy friendship in school, people dun exactly hang out or click that much outside of the school context.

In saying all that (rubbish)... something that i had wanted to say on my blog before was to give a shout out to Jon. Last sem had been pretty shitty for me, i knew i had stepped on some people's toes and was definitely less focused on school, but i'm very glad that he managed to help me at different points and took an interest in what i was doing. Now i am not saying we are good friends... i'm just saying i'm thankful and i appreciate it. If only people were willing to step in for others rather than collectively put someone down... this world (and school) will be a much better place.

I thank everyone else i know for being nice to me and *BHB* coming down to my shows when i ask/invite... anyone for helping out in anyway... thanks.

That said, friendship takes time... and of cuz, two hands to clap. Lets see what happens from here.

damn... this post sounds like some freaking politically correct and democratic post... haha... but i type so much shit already.... shan't delete it....

wasted days of our youth

2005-04-17T17:44:00.000+08:00

Guys, remeber what it was like when we were in the middle of school term, when we had super weird sleeping habits due to deadlines and rushing assignments... all those late nights and junk food constituting to zits and bodily changes i.e. getting fat =\ we all wished for the holiday to come quickly so our bodies can go back to normal..... i'm glad the break has came by though...

NOTHING HAS CHANGED!!

woo hoo... and i am not complaining too much either! I mean, very very late nights talking to friends on MSN or playing minesweeper.... watching all the vids of salad-finger.... watching more stupid vids on ebaums-world..... haha.... if not.... having late supper with friends and band mates.... sleeping at 4-5 in the morning and waking up around 2-3pm in the afternoon.... =)

Fine... call it a HUGE waste of time... but i think this is cool...

Game for minesweeper anyone? IM me... =)

check this out. and if u have time...this -----> okie, actually i dun recommend the latter. Only if u insist =)

gloomy sunday

2005-04-16T23:00:00.000+08:00

rezsô seress lyrics to "Gloomy Sunday"

Ôsz van és peregnek a sárgult levelek
Meghalt a földön az emberi szeretet
Bánatos könnyekkel zokog az öszi szél
Szívem már új tavaszt nem vár és nem remél
Hiába sírok és hiába szenvedek
Szívtelen rosszak és kapzsik az emberek...

Meghalt a szeretet!

Vége a világnak, vége a reménynek
Városok pusztulnak, srapnelek zenélnek
Emberek vérétôl piros a tarka rét
Halottak fekszenek az úton szerteszét
Még egyszer elmondom csendben az imámat:
Uram, az emberek gyarlók és hibáznak...

Vége a világnak!

LITERAL ENGLISH TRANSLATION:

It is autumn and the leaves are falling
All love has died on earth
The wind is weeping with sorrowful tears
My heart will never hope for a new spring again
My tears and my sorrows are all in vain
People are heartless, greedy and wicked...

Love has died!

The world has come to its end, hope has ceased to have a meaning
Cities are being wiped out, shrapnel is making music
Meadows are coloured red with human blood
There are dead people on the streets everywhere
I will say another quiet prayer:
People are sinners, Lord, they make mistakes...

The world has ended!

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creepyily interesting..................

o v e r t u r e t o d e a t h

D. P. MacDonald

In February of 1936, Budapest Police were investigating the suicide of a local shoemaker, Joseph Keller. The investigation showed that Keller had left a suicide note in which he quoted the lyrics of a recent popular song. The song was "Gloomy Sunday".

The fact that a man chose to quote the lyrics of a little-known song may not seem very strange. However, the fact that over the years, this song has been directly associated with the deaths of over 100 people is quite strange indeed.

Following the event described above, seventeen additional people took their own lives. In each case, "Gloomy Sunday" was closely connected with the circumstances surrounding the suicide.

Among those included are two people who shot themselves while listening to a gypsy band playing the tune. Several others drowned themselves in the Danube while clutching the sheet music of "Gloomy Sunday". One gentleman reportedly walked out of a nightclub and blew his brains out after having requested the band to play "The Suicide Song".

The adverse effect of "Gloomy Sunday" was becoming so great that the Budapest Police thought it best to ban the song. However, the suppression of "Gloomy Sunday" was not restricted to Budapest, nor was its seemingly evil effects. In Berlin, a young shopkeeper hung herself. Beneath her feet lay a copy of "Gloomy Sunday".

In New York, a pretty typist gassed herself leaving a request that "Gloomy Sunday" should be played at her funeral.

Many claim that broken romances are the true causes of these suicides. However, this is debatable. For instance, one man jumped to his death from a seventh story window followed by the wailing strains of "Gloomy Sunday". He was over 80 years old! In contrast to this, a 14 year old girl drowned herself while clutching a copy of "The Suicide Song".

Perhaps the strongest of all was the case of an errand boy in Rome, who, having heard a beggar humming the tune, parked his cycle, walked over to the beggar, gave him all his money, and then sought his death in the waters beneath a nearby bridge.

As the death toll climbed, the B.B.C. felt it necesssary to suppress the song, and the U.S. network quickly followed suit. A French station even brought in psychic experts to study the effects of "Gloomy Sunday" but had no effect on the ever climbing death rate.

The composer, Rezsô Seress, who in 1933 wrote "Gloomy Sunday", was as bewildered as the rest of the world. Although he wrote the song on the breakup of his own romance, he never dreamed of the results which would follow. However, as fate would have it, not even Seress could escape the song's strange effects.

At first he had a difficult time getting someone to publish the song. Quite frankly, no one would have anything to do with it. As one publisher stated, "It is not that the song is sad, there is a sort of terrible compelling despair about it. I don't think it would do anyone any good to hear a song like that."

However, time passed and Seress finally got his song published. Within the week "Gloomy Sunday" became a best seller, Seress contacted his ex-lover and made plans for a reunion. The next day the girl took her life through the use of poison. By her side was a piece of paper containing two words: "Gloomy Sunday".

When questioned as to just what he had in mind when he wrote the song, Seress replied, "I stand in the midst of this deadly success as an accused man. This fatal fame hurts me. I cried all of the disappointments of my heart into this song, and it seems that others with feelings like mine have found their own hurt in it."

As the months went by and the excitement died down, the B.B.C. agreed to release "Gloomy Sunday", but only as an instrumental. This version was later made into a record. A London policemen heard this particular arrangement being repeatedly and endlessly played in a nearby apartment. He considered this to be worthy of investigation. Upon entering the apartment, he found an automatic phonograph playing and replaying the tune. Next to it was a woman, dead from an overdose of barbiturates. It was this incident which prompted the B.B.C. to reimpose its ban on the song. To this day it has not been lifted.

As a final note, "Gloomy Sunday" was introduced to the U.S. market in 1936. However, getting it recorded was no easy matter. Bob Allen and members of the Hal Kemp band were the first to record "Gloomy Sunday" in the U.S. They were noticeably affected while making the record. It took twenty-one takes to turn out a record good enough to publish. Few people who have ever listened to the melody and lyrics fail to confess that it has a horribly depressing effect.

Finally, it is not surprising to note that Rezsô Seress, the composer of "Gloomy Sunday", committed suicide in 1968..

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article taken from "http://www.phespirit.info/gloomysunday/article_01.htm" i fucking hate the wword plagarism now....

This article was stolen without permission from the 'JUSTIN AND ANJI' web site; it was originally published to augment their now defunct 'Gloomy Sunday Radio Show'.

In the introduction they say:

This message was forwarded to us by a visitor to our web site. There is some good historical information on the song intermixed with some information of more dubious repute. The accounts begin to take on the feel of a satiric e-mail chain letter after a while, but then, sometimes truth is indeed stranger than fiction. The story does read a little bit like the script of a segment from Strange Universe! So take this with a grain of salt ..... The text was [supposedly] quoted from the Cincinatti Journal of Ceremonial Magick, vol I, no I, printed in 1976

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I have the billie holiday version... anyone wants it? =)

quotes

2005-04-14T12:45:00.000+08:00

You know how sometimes, you talk to people and they give u a piece of advice that u find very helpful and thus you remeber it by heart? Well... here is some of mine that i got while lamenting over my own problems to others. Advice i try to apply to my life all the time.

From Vicki Ho (a musician and person i look up to):
"Everyone gotta start from somewhere, so dun look down on anyone unless they are being arrogant"

From Wendy Phua (Bassist of Zhen):
"Its not the final destination that matters, its the journey in learning that truely counts"

From Kelvin Singh (Schtung engineer):
"Why bother striving to be like this person or that person? All you should strive for is to be a better musician and thats enough"

most of these advice are based on music but it can be used in alot of circumstances. I am sure there are more but right now, i cant remeber them... these are the most memorable.

Whats yours?

2005-03-18T21:02:00.000+08:00

this picture is freaking cool! In case you guys do not know yet... yes, Bathroom Acoustics is my other band!!

fire rafe

2005-03-17T20:10:00.000+08:00

This is what happens when u get bored around 3am while recording. Besides Kelvin's superb mixing skills.. he is apt with fire too! haha.... horray to slow shutter speeds!

windows fucking sucks

2005-02-19T02:16:00.000+08:00

okie, guess what today's topic is gonna be about... yes... its none other then how...

WINDOWS FUCKING SUCKS - Period.

You know how sometimes you're in a hurry and so u simply click on the stupid start button and hit "turn of computer"... you then not wait for the computer to shut down and trust that it actually does? Well.. i did that today.... when i got home i realised the stupid machine was still on. I opened the lid of the fucking windows based computer and the screen would not come on... i decided to manually turn it off by holding the power button down... (something i do once in a while) so yes.... "tum-di-tum-di-tum" i hummed as i waited for the fucker to load up and then i see it...

"due to blah blah blah... all settings will be lost on the current user profile... blah blah blah..."

okie... fine... i dun have a fucking choice... just leave my files inside... change any fucking thing u want but leave my files alone... but viola! EVRYTHING FUCKING FILE vanished from "my documents" .... every FUCKING thing on my desktop is gone.... all my work in progress is wiped out completed work and designs that i had spent countless of hours on is now fucking gone.

Windows happily changed the damn wall paper to the FUCKING STUPID hill with green grass all over... like its happily singing... "dun worry, be happy" and half expecting the telly tubbies to come out and play.

FUCK WINDOWS.

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On a happier not... was at the AMP just now (malay equal of the grammys) and Bhumi band (which Awi from rafe also fronts) won 3 outta 5 nominations. They won "best new band/artise" "Best song" and "Best Album (singapore)"... so yes.. i am glad for them but my fucking com is still dead... fuck it.

bass di

2005-02-15T01:28:00.000+08:00

Okie, this post would probably be ignored by most people who read this but... if ur a bassist who belive that tone is everything... check this out...

Yes... that looks suspisously like the lauded Tri-AC for guitar... but no!! its not! its the frigging SansAmp Bass DI but now in programmable form!!!!

If your a bassist who gigs very regularly, you owe it to yourself to get ur hands on one and try it out (then you'll understand why there are so much rave reviews about it... the next best would be the Swadosky Bass DI). It kicks ass! =)

Anyone out there loves me alot? I know Valatine day just passed but... aww... show me some true loving and affection... buy that for me!!! =)

chinese new year

2005-02-09T22:23:00.000+08:00

I was wondering abt Chinese New Year... and i *think* like most people my age... We really dun know shit abt its importance nor even really take it seriously. Not that is dis-like Chinese New Year or anything but i really have no proper understanding of its importance thus to me, Chinese New Year is simply a time of reunion. I dun understand the more cutural aspect of it and all that chinese stuff.

I thought abt this because... if i hardly know anything... i wonder how my own future children will appreciate it when their dad knows crap.

been a long time..

2005-01-30T22:24:00.000+08:00

I can only remeber 4 main events this week... one was... Meeting Universal, hanging out with the DYL gang till 4.30AM and trying Sheesha (or however u spell that smoking device thingy), finding out that the china-man(boy) who sold me my bass was a fucking asshole and the gig i just did.

Universal: (Thursday)

Okie, Rafe is kinda behind scedule but the lastest meeting was good... deadlines has been set... we're almost full steam ahead, and for sure now... album will be out in mid-march... things are gonna get pretty interesting.

DYL: (sat - sunday early morning)

Hung Out at the Tanjong Pagar Railway station where they serve pretty good food at decent prices. Tried out that turkish smoking thingy... its fun to blow out the thick white smoke... but its something i can leave without.

Fucked up (lovely) bass: (Saturday)

Bought the Warwick a few months back.... and it was only last sat that i realised the fucker jammed the truss rod entry. Basically, its at the swee lee service center getting fixed... thankfully Mervin from "Morian Tea Estate" is able to lend me his Yamaha BB405. Its my fault for not checking the Bass throughly before purchasing it, but the fucker should have told me it was faulty. Some people have no ethics.

Latest gig at East Coast: (sunday)

Was pretty alright (that sounds like the same thing i ALWAYS say)... fuck... u know what, i'm too lazy to continue blogging. I wanna go out with you people instead lah.... MCM friends and all... have you studied for Medisoc yet? I know i havent... i am so dead. I dun even know where and how to start.

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

2005-01-18T21:55:00.000+08:00

After having dinner on my own today... i decided to check out if there was anything at the video store... i borrowed "Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind" and its a pretty cool movie... Jim Carrey can surely play a more serious role very well. Kate Winslet was pretty hot in the film too.... i found the show saddening.... a show worth to watch with ya significant other or something... it'll make u cherish them more and be more forgiving with all their short comings....

In the end credits... they played this great song by "Beck"... actually, its a cover but i do not know the original... its called "Everybody's got to learn sometime"

"Change your heart
Look around you
Change your heart
It will astound you
I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine

Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime

Change your heart
Look around you
Change your heart
Will astound you
I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine

Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime

I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine"

I think the verses are all so damn simple yet so damn sweet.... i like the bass line too... and the general sad melody... very minor-ish.

stupid rant

2005-01-13T02:36:00.000+08:00

Ode to the Nice Guys
This rant was written for the Wharton Undergraduate Journal

This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl’s every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.

This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they’re at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don’t end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn’t worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you’d ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn’t have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing “serious” between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: “oh, but we’re just friends!” And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you’re nice like that.

The nice guys don’t often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don’t seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can’t. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as “oh, he’s too nice to date” or “he would be a good boyfriend but he’s not for me” or “he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn’t possibly ask him out!” or the most frustrating of all: “no, it would ruin our friendship.” Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can’t figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I’m going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn’t last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.

So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you’re sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming.

Fu-zu Jen, SEAS/WH, 2003

*i got this extract of http://www.stwing.upenn.edu/~jenf/writing/rant04.html*
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Its funny.... but kinda painful to read. =) haha...

no more boyband...

2005-01-11T18:39:00.000+08:00

Here is a picture of the band taken in the our dressing room
at our New Year's Eve 2004 Esplanade show.... finally... no more
stupid boyband pics... =)

mentor

2005-01-11T18:16:00.000+08:00

I know its probably useless but.... i FUCKING hate bus number 61.....

i HATE the bloody huge crowd that boards it after school... and most of all, i fucking HATE the waiting time for it.... i mean... sure... 10 mins is fine.... but NOOOOO it can bloody take up to 25 minutes to arrive.... and it happens like the OFTEN! i mean like... can't SMRT Buses or TIBS buses increase the DAMN frequency?!!!! it sucks when u see other buses arrive like 3 BLOODY times before yours actually come...

I'm also pissed cuz i carried my damn bass around (its not light with my other stupid gear) school the whole damn day only to find out practice was cancelled... if it wasnt for Jordan apologising, i would not even have known practice was cancelled.

Okie... i experience my own small bit of history today... my medisoc (media in society) lecture was the shortest lecture i have ever sat in for (not that its bad... i'll explian more). Firstly... she said lecture starts at 8.45am.... fine.... i few of us came in at around 8.55am... thats like being ten minutes late... which in general IS to be expected... yet, we were marked late... well... sure... fine... be anal... its okie.... the next thing we knew.... lecture was over at 9.15...... nevermind that the lecture was short, i honestly tried listening today yet i hardly understood much of her 95% script aided "speech". She complains abt us failing if we do not buck up or be serious.... but she is missing out one huge part about our batch....

In my opinion, though alot of us act stupid... take things seemingly lightly... when it comes down to real graded work... i know alot of us are gonna work our asses of to get the grade we want, with or without her help.... and at the end of the day... i know alot of us will do fine.... and she'll get away with it for another year... sheesh... do i need to censor myself here? =)

I've a headache now... from standing and reading in the grossly crowded bus...

rafe new site is up!

2005-01-11T02:41:00.000+08:00

Yay!! Rafe's new website is UP! Finally.. after like... so long... but still... its not complete... just ALMOST there =) (the link is on the left!!!)

Today was pretty cool.... hung out laregly with the entire Wanker Inc after speech comm... haha... i skipped Location Video cuz i over slept....

Went to support "FMS erotiko" after school.... it was interesting.... despite them losing 2-1... i still think they did a VERY good job... plus... its just stupid to allow school team players to enter the competition.... a mix of fsv and mcm people then played a little bit of B-ball.... girls against guys... of cuz... the guys won... wad would u expect? *grinz...* (okie, i'm kidding... the girls... all of them were fantastic... i TOTALLY suck at b-ball...) haha...

Does Alvron sell XLR connection cables? I need one for my new BASS DI box...

alot has happened

2005-01-09T01:12:00.000+08:00

okie... shit... i havent updated for quite awhile... and i've bad memory... so let me put down what has happen since my birthday before i forget...

jan 7th :

there was gracom... which my mind was totally not focused on.... half way through... Robin sent me an SMS that wasn't meant for me.... cuz it contained some information abt them wanting to surprise me for my birthday... tsk tsk... but it was all good...

After class... Eve, Benita, Anne, Charmaine and keshia gave my the "311 greatest hits CD" which was pretty cool cuz i had wanted it =)

thanks for the cake/cd guys (liz, charm, fi, jon, jia hau, danny, robin).... was generally just slacking in town... played pool a little... hung around PS... I tried the fretless yamaha bass there and wow... it was really really a joy to play... very smooth... bought myself the korg in-ear metronome for practice too....

chilled at borders before heading down to town to meet up with the guys... we had planned to head to mount faber but becuz of some changes, we decided to go to wala-wala instead.. EIC was playing and they (bassist and lead guitars) were awesome... well, the whole band was pretty good... i'll wanna play in a club one day... doing covers for fun... haha... it'll be good money too =) It was cool... my first time in wala-wala... but the air conditioning sucks... and the crowd was just too full...

the band has another talk again... about our direction... our commitment... and everything... i guess that was pretty good... cleared up some questions and stuff.... Rafe is gonna make it... i can feel it!

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Today, i went down to sinamex to buy the Sansamp Bass DI (bloody expensive).... i'm still tweaking around with it... its not as hyped up as i had expected it to be... but maybe its cuz i dun know how to use it yet....i hope this investment is worth every damn cent... checked out "musik art" at ngee ann poly.... i'm glad i decided to go down in the end.... the leaven traits played pretty well today.... then this other band came along "enigmatic" (asian beats 2003 winner and overal asian beats, against 6 other countries winner) and i can fully understand why when i watched them... one word "phoar!" super..... those... they had this fucking irritating "guest" singer.... a mat will always be a mat.... unlike that really good band....

guys from, morean tea estate, bathroom acoustic and leaven traits had dinner at al ameen and becuz we were so "inspired" haha... we jammed together (yes, abt 10 of us) at alvron (which is getting bloody horrible... service and equpiment) and yes.... this is when i felt like shit.... i just could not play properly... screw it... i need a HELL lot of learning and practice... this sucks...

so yes... at the point of this bloody long winded entry.... i currently feel like shit.... i'm bassing away with all my non-existant creativity (i sound like a girl now with my exageration... but really... my creativity is bad...) .... wads the point of being able to play all the fancy stuff aned covers right when i cant come up with my own?

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GUYS!! RAFE'S NEXT SHOW IS ON THE 15TH OF JANUARY!!! AT CINELEISURE... THIS SHOW IS IN AID OF THE TSUNAMI INCIDENT AND VICTIMS... ORGANISED BY POWER 98! COME DOWN TO SUPPORT US... OR SIMPLY IF U WANNA HEAR SOME GOOD MUSIC AND WATCH SOME GREAT BANDS!

okie... i believe to some people... full caps in sentences is irritating... but anyway.... here is a link for more information regarding the gig....

http://www.power98.com.sg/pages/power-cares.php

you gotta scroll down the page a little to see the bands playing....

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I'm single...i'm not looking for anyone... but i'm damn available... anyone wants? wahahaha... place ya bids... =)

mats and bengs suck

2005-01-03T20:00:00.000+08:00

Guess what’s worse then a crowded bus with smelly people? A crowded bus with smell people and MATS making a lot of stupid noise…. Actually... BENGS/LIANS and equally as bad but the ones i encountered today were MATS. Stupid asses were making an irritating din on board like they owned the bus and that there was no one around... they wasted their time in alighting and the bus driver closed the door and drove of even though they started like shouting at the bus driver... I’m glad he didn’t stop.... idiots....

School was pretty darn boring today.... and strangely, I was lethargic like hell.... I didn’t sleep too late last night too though..... got back my first assessed speech... could have done better but i guess I’m satisfied...

I'm so happy cuz if all goes as planned, I’m gonna get my Fender Jazz this Saturday =)

enough abt girls...

2005-01-03T01:47:00.000+08:00

okie... yes, its the year 2005 and things should be happy... well yeah i'm happy but this entry is gonna be stupid, random and whiney...

Girls suck.... haha... okie no, i'm kidding. I probably suck with them (no pun intended)... At least those that i like, and i dun fall that easily anyway. Yet when i do develop something for someone, it'll end up with that person not being the right one for me and vice versa or some crap like that.

being single isnt fun when u have someone to dream about that u cannot be with.... so hey, i give up. =)

*no comments on this entry please*

new year

2005-01-01T20:47:00.000+08:00

The show that we did at the Esplanade was awesome... for Rafe, it is probably our biggest gig for the year 2004. Things are definitly looking up for the band... we are thankful for all the people who have believed in us, like Lim Yu Beng, the Power 98 people and too all my friends and supporters who came down! thanks guys!

Okie... i had made some stupid jokes about the tsunami incident and stuff.... but well, we all know jokes are jokes.... reading up on the news paper articles and having seen videos and pictures of the incident... it is very humbling.

well yeah... this has been a really short update... my head is kinda woozy.. hah...

have a blessed NEW YEAR everyone!!

new year..

2004-12-28T03:54:00.000+08:00

i feel the need for a quick update.... somehow... blogging recently seems more like a chore then something fun...

anyhow, this week has and is gonna be pretty stressful for me.... i've two shows coming up.... the first is on this 30TH (thursday) at chateau d'arts, level 3 stamford house, 6.30pm with Bathroom Acoustics... tickets at the door is $5 bucks..... oh yeah, this gig is called MOSH.05

the next one, is the most important gig for me (and RAFE) this year... the Esplanade New Year Gig. We're playing at the PowerStage @ 10.15pm which is to the left of the outdoor stage near the big field... you cannot miss it... do come down if your free!! Its defintely gonna be extremely entertaining with many other performances!

Doing these gigs is definitely a good thing.... but the bloody problem is...., i have barely touched my gracomm assignment nor the SAB presentation... PLUS i have band practice which is pretty killer..... having both BA and RAFE session back to back in a day is not easy... wish me all the best!!!!

2004-12-25T01:56:00.001+08:00

The cough is NOT getting any bloody better... this is tthe first time a damn cough has been persistant for about a damn week!! i was telling Eve i'll do anything to get rid of this cough and she asked if i would kiss victor valbuena's ass..... and YES! i bloody would....

Had a "christmas" dinner at my mom's sister place... alot of relatives from my mom's sister's husband (wads that term? wad in-law?) came over.... i hard knew anyone... i dun exactly like visiting my relatives except my grand parents... the food looked good... though the cough gave me a bloody lousy appetite.... i just dun really like visiting my relatives... too much formalities and shit... the best part of it all.... their mostly staunch Buddist... celebrating Christmas... bah.

gonna sleep now.

2004-12-25T01:56:00.000+08:00